Listening: Insterstellar Ambience by Hans Zimmer
My head hurts. I hate how Wellbutrin makes me feel: constant headaches. I don’t even remember what it’s like to have a clear head anymore. I want to taper off, but that will probably take a while. I just hope my doctor lets me.
They don’t even work, if I’m being honest. I’m still suicidal; I still get depressed; I still hate living. I really don’t see a difference between pre-Wellbutrin me and current-Wellbutrin me.
My head always hurts. My eyes always feel like they’re sinking. It sucks. I can’t even focus or read or do math or write. I just bedrot and hope it goes away — but it fucking doesn’t. I hate it so much. Fuck these fucking drugs.